Mother's Day

Rylee showed up on my front door step around 11 or 11:30 Saturday night without telling me she was coming so as to surprise me for Mother's Day!  Love that :)  She went to sacrament with us then we went to my mom's for dinner.  I ended up having a panic attack while we were there...it happened like this...I was fine sitting at the table talking to family, when all of a sudden my heart rate accelerated and I felt like I couldn't catch my breath.  Quietly went onto living room to try and calm myself down.  Didn't tell anyone but they could tell something was wrong.  A week ago, I made family dinner at my house and started getting really anxious after church when I started preparing the food and never calmed down all day.  I started having palpitations, tachycardia, and PVC's.  No afib thankfully, but tight chest and breathlessness.  Called in sick for work tonight since I was scared of not sleeping and throwing myself into Afib.  Most of the night I kept falling asleep and then jerking myself awake every time with heart rate spikes.  Over and over. Sat on recliner downstairs to sleep but it didn't help.  So, this week when it happened again, I quietly told my mom and Josh what was happening so my mom gave me Min Tran.  It's a nervous system support and just takes the edge off.  Took some and by the time we got home like 10 minutes later, I felt fine. Now that I know these are panic attacks from worrying so much about going into afib and fixating on every weird feeling I get, I use Min Tran and L-Theanine to help me calm down.  Had appointment with heart specialist and he prescribed me propranolol to help with anxiety and fast heart rate.   Mom rode with me to Cody for my appointment.  He didn't recommend medication or ablation for now because I haven't had many afib episodes and my risk of having a stroke is only 1 because I am a female.  To get any medication for if I ever do go into afib, I have to be observed when I take it for the first time, so I would have to be in his office for a stress test and have it given or if I ever end up in the ER, they could give it to me then.  I hate not having a pill to take and that my only option is to go into the ER if I can't convert myself.  But as of today, July 5th, I have been taking care of myself and I feel perfectly normal and haven't had any episodes of afib, fast heart rate, or panic attacks for a couple months now.

Anyway, after we got home, a storm blew through with crazy wind that almost blew my greenhouse away, so we all had to bring my plants in and brace it so dad could strap it down.  Otherwise, had a good day with my kiddos :)